Free.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you

Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away

For a long time I've been listening to Snuff and I've really liked it, even though a lot of people say its not Slipknot... But it is a really nice song if you don't think of it as Slipknot. And I never thought I'd do what the words relayed.

I only wish you weren't my friend

Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

I guess its something like what she did :)

and well, yeah.

I still press your letters to my lips

And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

Deliver me into my fate
I don't deserve to have you
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I've definitely changed a lot since I met you, mostly, expanding my hroizons, and if it weren't for you I would be very different today. You turned me from someone hopeful into an optimist. You made me focus my views. You made me see.

I've had lots of fun with you :)

I've had experiences like no other, like sleeping under the stars with you and escaping the narcs, just walking around in circles, talking about life, secrets, texting each other till dawn, I never imagined I'd have someone willing to follow me to a place like Johor Bahru either.

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again,
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through

And I'd have given up on many things if it weren't for you, I've made friends, I've learnt how to deal with things, and best of all, I had you while all that happened :)

When hope begins to fade

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You were my best friend, you were always there for me when I needed you.

And yeah, that mistake I made two months and a day. I sure do regret it. A lot. I still do. I think about it everyday. I think about you all the time. All day. All night. Even in my dreams you haunt me.

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold

And well, for the past two months I know I've been bad. And I really just wouldn't let you out of my sight.

And now, I've done what I've done what I've done to make sure that you're happy, cause when I met you you were pretty much the most hyper-crazy-awesome person I knew.

 And I want you to be happy :)

and yes, I do get what you mean when you say we just can't right now. And like yeah, maybe we'll give it a shot in the future

And the dream I got last night was pretty much the only thing we could do to sweeten the situation. If only (:

I'd like to thank you for everything, once again, for staying by my side for so long. Doing this sure wasn't easy for me, but I'll try to work through this.

And once again, maybe for the last time, I'd like to say.

I love you.